Abraham 30 day challenge: Tuesday was Day Eighteen

In You Can Heal Your Life, Louise L. Hay says that the probable cause for eczema is  "breathtaking antagonism or mental eruptions."

The accompanying affirmation, from her Hay House bestseller is, "Harmony and peace, love and joy surround me and indwell me. I am safe and secure."

For a few days I had been noticeing a blockage in my energy, but couldn't figure out what it was. I knew I had been being very perfectionistic and hard on myself ever since starting this 30 day challenge. But didn't connect the two.

"Suddenly" I got really bad skin. My face was practically a mask of eczema, and I was mortified! Knowing what I do about how my thoughts affect everything, I focused on being gentle and loving with myself.

I also started doing a daily mirror process, of sitting in front of my mirror for 3 minutes and smiling. In my head I repeat "'Seyi you are so beautiful, I love you." continuously for the three minutes. On the first evening, I cried while doing it.

This is one of the first processes I did when I began searching for my happiness. It really helped with my self image and healed the chronic BDD I had suffered from, as part of my codependency all my life. I cried every time I did it to begin with. After a few weeks, looking at myself grew easier, less unbearable with practice. Eventually I began to see my beauty.

I'll write more on that another time.

Tuesday (day eighteen) I was guided very clearly around my day.

I met with the guy from the agency Im offering codependency awareness workshops to in the morning, which went well but triggered even more perfectionsm. After another meeting at half one, I was guided to go to TKMaxx, which was not on my to-do list for the day. I had been up until 3 the night before writing ideas for the workshops. I just wanted to go to bed. 

But I went to TKMaxx, because I needed some face wash, even tho I haven't found any I like there recently. I listened, trusted and went. I love TKMaxx, they always have awesome organic natural toiletries.

After about 15 mins of searching through the toiletries I began feeling a disheartened, id found a nice set for my son, but not what I wanted. Just as I was about to get resentful toward my angels, I looked somewhere I hadn't before and found the most delicious olive oil L'Occitane face wash. Which is a very nice brand, one I've never seen in there before. I thanked my angels profusely and made my way to the till.

While waiting to pay, I saw a cute little bamboo face cloth. I love bamboo products, they are eco-friendly, and naturally anti- bacterial. I didn't think I had enough money for everything, but said a little prayer, and I had almost to the penny the amount I needed!

While I had been in TKMaxx, id been receiving guidance to go and see my sister. I was so tired, and all I wanted to do was go home and climb back into bed. But it was clear, and insistent, so I did as I was asked.

I left her house much later that day, eddified with cuddles and giggles with my nephew, and a huge tub of African Shea butter, that I promised to buy back, which will help my skin heal. This was even more evidence that the Universe was showing me where to go to get the help I had been asking for.

I have been using a constant mantra of reassurance that Im doing well, and everything is going to be ok, as well as slathering on the Shea butter at every opportunity. Today, just 2 days later, my skin is so much better. And more importantly, I am being much gentler on myself, and not pushing myself to achieve anything with regard to the workshops or this blog.

I felt that much of the love and validation I desired as a child was based on succeeding and achieving. That there was always an expectation that I should be able to do everything perfectly the first time I tried, and every time thereafter. This deep conditioning toward perfectionsm is something I am working on letting go of. It is soul destroying, and my inner child has gone into sabotage mode.

All I can do is soothe Princess 'Seyi, while I learn how to put less pressure on myself, and how to trust Im on the right track. Abraham really helps, as does the EFT I've been doing with Cathryn Taylor, and writing.

My happiness relies on combining the variety of ingredients I've collected, and picking out the right ones for each scenario that arises.

These Abraham videos helped me appreciate that I am actually  exactly where Im meant to be, and I am doing really well.

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=BPHdNU07hEo

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1LLexgn_s3g&feature=related

Inner child
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kVCSfJZK4_I&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DkVCSfJZK4_I

Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day Sixteen

Last night I had a dream, and 111 is the only thing I remembered from it when I awoke in the morning. I was somewhat confused because I had a feeling that the dream had been very important, and there was something in it that I needed to know.

Lying in bed, trying recall anything else, was a futile exercise. Eventually I got up, and got on with my morning Abraham processes. During which time I remembered about how powerful numbers have always been for me. And that jerry Hicks also loved seeing number sequences.

Doreen Virtue, one of the leading Angel "whisperers," has a brilliant section about the meaning of sequential numbers on the site below, 111 means:
"Monitor your thoughts carefully, and be sure to only think about what you want, not what you don't want. This sequence is a sign that there is a gate of opportunity opening up, and your thoughts are manifesting into form at record speeds. The 111 is like the bright light of a flash bulb. It means the universe has just taken a snapshot of your thoughts and is manifesting them into form. Are you pleased with what thoughts the universe has captured? If not, correct your thoughts (ask your angels to help you with this if you have difficulty controlling or monitoring your thoughts)."

When I read the description I cried. Im very emotional at the moment - which is more evidence of this process working.

http://spiritlibrary.com/doreen-virtue/number-sequences-from-the-angels

Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day Fourteen

The title of today is: Humility.

This morning I was the furthest away from my vortex that I've been for a long time. Although I had slept well, and had been in my vortex when I got out of bed, because I was getting aware that I was getting some guidance to not do something I wanted to do, I shut myself off. Which is very old, and now, very uncomfortable Codependent behaviour.

I willfully went to the library to internet, as planned. It was snowing heavily, and I wanted to get to the shops before they sent the staff home.

I enjoyed the ten minute uphill walk there, and was overly warm by the time I arrived. My feet lovely and warm and dry, thanks to the plastic bags I had put on between two layers of socks.

While engrossed in some research for the codependency workshop programme Im developing, 2 people entered the library. A man and woman. The woman was moaning about someone, calling them Rat-face. And storming around telling anyone who would engage with her about some hard times she was experiencing.

She stormed past me, and I felt her anger. I felt quite uncomfortable and was worried she might take out her anger on me. She clearly had "mental health" issues. I did my best not to judge, and when she came to tell me her woes, I attempted to be positive and kept the conversation to a minimum. She was actually quite friendly, and all of her frustration was directed to the man she was with, and the person who had upset her.

When I left the library, I didn't think anything more of her (if I had been in a more connected state I would have been sending her love the moment she came in the door).

All the way home I really wanted to make a Snow Angel. You know? When you lie on the ground, arms and legs akimbo, and you move them like you're doing star jumps.  My inner child was begging me to, but I wasn't there.

Finally, on the grass verge, now a snow verge, around the corner from my house, I submitted. Throwing my bags down, and myself beside them I made a fabulous snow angel. And it was so much fun that I wanted to make a row of them but I didn't. One was enough.

As I sat up, my back covered with snow, the woman from the library was walking past. I had never seen her near this part of where I live before, nevertheless, there she was, smiling up at me on the verge. Saying "yep, that's the best exercise in this weather. Are you doing your exercise? Thats the best way to do it in this weather."

I got up, smiled, and went home.

Part of my daily practice is doing the Extreme Sweat programme on the wii Just Dance game. And I love it. When I was in my active addiction, I was a clubber. At the height of my acting out, I would go out to a nightclub at least 3 nights a week every week.

The motivation was partly because I was desperate to get attention from men, and hopefully meet my husband. But a big part was because I LOVE dancing. My inner child still wants to be a dancer when she grows up. And one of the manifestations we've been playing with in the vortex is that being on one of those dancing shows on TV.

When I used to go out dancing, id feel so happy. In the middle of the dance floor, surrounded by people. Feeling the vibration of the music flowing through me.

I was home. I was so connected, I would have a spiritual experience every time I got on the dance floor. I thought the feeling was because of all the drugs and alcohol I had consumed.

I now know that the feeling of joy was my connection with God. I am a really good dancer. Because God dances through me, and with me. I have almost perfect rhythm without trying. I feel the music in my heart. When I dance I easily go in my vortex.

I recently realised that because of my perfectionsm, I have been being quite hard on myself when I don't get high scores on the game. So Im working on being gentle and loving with myself.

I feel the vortex throbbing in my heart for ages after I dance. It is my happy place. Its so much fun. When I dance, I feel whole.

What's yours?

Few Abe videos that I loved today:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=relmfu&v=hK4azzAvuAY

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tlNmsRt7tx4

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=GzF7C0ZDwM4

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=v4iUs0BzXYs

Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day Thirteen

Yesterday was a challenging, interesting, growing, manifesting day.

This morning I felt frustrated with  the challenge. Tired of working so hard at feeling better. However, when I don't try to find better feeling thoughts, because over the last fourteen days I have been working so hard to fine tune my awareness of where I am in relation to my vortex, the discomfort feels worse now than before. It feels like my resistance is ramping up. 

I have been beating myself up about this. Beating myself up because Im not doing it perfectly, because Im not in my vortex as much as id like, and because I keep wallowing and worrying.

I listened to this brilliant Abraham audio, which really helped:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=9HeALXyI44A

Yesterday was interesting and manifesting, because the night before I had affirmed that I am ready to step into the shoes of my True Self (True Seyi). I felt it. I had connected with Who I have become. Who I have expanded into Being. I connected, without prejudice or resistance, to my vortex.

Completely ready to take regular steps in the direction of my True Seyi. Yesterday I took some leaps. And do you know what? It was easy. And do you know what else? I was ready.

I feel excited, and I know that the workshops Im developing are going to help people. I received clear guidance that I have to offer them to women's correction facilities, amongst other places.

In the Abraham audio explaining this 30 day challenge, Abraham says that after a few days you'll begin to receive guidance on new ways to behave, and that it will be like the Universe is saying, "you've been thinking about doing this for a long time, let me show you where it is." and "you've been thinkin about this for a long time,let me show you where that is." This is exactly how it feels.

I have been wanting to do workshops about codependency and the processes I've used to change my life. Codependency is one of the worlds biggest, and most damaging, yet best kept secrets. 

I am eager to move forward with the commitments to my life I've made.

There is some debate about who first wrote this quote, but it sums up my new life intention:
“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a Ride!”

I love it.

Finally, yesterday was challenging because of my codependency. Wanting to control and have everything my way. Judging and projecting how terrible something will be. Negative fantasies about a situation that turned out to be a blessing.

This Abraham audio helped me recognise that I didn't attract the negative situation, I was facilitating the solution for the parties involved:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mo3HAxrgOGw

No matter what issue I encounter during this challenge, I come across a YouTube clip of Abraham that helps me feel at least a little bit better, and release a little bit of resistance.

Thanks Abe xxx 

Other clips that really helped me today:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=relmfu&v=hK4azzAvuAY

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tlNmsRt7tx4

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=v4iUs0BzXYs

Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge: Day Twelve

Day twelve, and all is well on the Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge. In fact, all is better than well, all is AWESOME! (the word "awesome" said like a surfer dude).
Each day offers numerous opportunities to grow closer to God, my True Self. Miracles abound, and the evidence that I am "tuned in, turned on, and tapped in," most of the time, is abundant.
Rather than the metaphorical evidence I experienced yesterday when my debit card was blocked for "unusual spending activities," today the manifestation became physical.
One of the daily processes I do in the morning, is the Prosperity Game from Ask And It Is Given by Abraham, via Esther and jerry Hicks. I explained fully how to play it in a previous post. Basically, the purpose of the Game is to improve your feeling about spending money, and remove the tension many people experience when making financial decisions, which creates resistance, and therefore blocks the money in your vortex from coming to you.
Since playing the game regularly, I feel like I don't need money any more, and I don't worry about it running out. I know that I'll always get some more. Its been fun just spending whatever I want, and not thinking about how I'll pay the bills if I buy that holiday, or 20 expensive bras.
And because I use exactly the same accounting method I for my "real" finances, it feels really real.
I received £10,000 today, and bought something for someone that would change their life. It filled me with joy doing it for them. That purchase took all the money I had received that day, however, I had a bit left from the previous day (you're meant to try and spend all the money you receive on the same day, but you can save a bit if you like. Well. You can do what you want, its your game) that id carried forward, so purchased a few bits and bobs for myself. I totalled it up, then became aware I was resisting some guidance. But I ignored it, put the pad away and moved on to writing up some Positive Aspects. Fortunately the guidance persisted, so I breathed and listened, and remembered that I had decided to purchase a copy of the Getting Into The Vortex book/cd that day.
I checked how much was left in my Game account, and I had just over £30. I bought 3 copies, one each for me and my 2 children. Closed the book and thought nothing of how insistent my guidance had been about it.
After breakfast, I was getting ready to go to my first appointment of the day when the post came, and it sounded quite heavy, so I thought:
"hmmm, sounds like that big cheque I've been waiting for!" excited, I went to fetch the cheque, but it was something quite different.
An Amazon book box.
You guessed right, one of my fabulous Appreciation Game friends had ordered me a copy of the Getting Into The Vortex book/cd. And it came ON THE DAY I ordered it from the Universe!
THAT IS AMAZING!
I cried with happiness and appreciation. I don't need any more evidence of the Law of Attraction in action after that.
Couple of powerful pieces of evidence came later in the day:
All afternoon, and for much of the early evening I was stuck in fear/catastrophe thinking that I couldn't shift. I did the necessary writing in an attempt to raise my vibration. Eventually, as soon as I was able to focus more attention on the outcome I desired rather than the problem as I was projecting it, the issue literally dissolved and became irrelevant. I checked my twitter account just after I got the call confirming the issue had dissolved, the first one my eyes laid upon was:
ACIM Quotes (@ACIMquotes) tweeted at 3:57 PM on Wed, Jan 16, 2013:
"There is no home can shelter love and fear. They cannot coexist."
#ACIM #quotes (https://twitter.com/ACIMquotes/status/291574843659386882)
Later on in the evening, while in the bath, I connected easily with my Vortex. For the first time I felt ready to move forward, and step into where Life is taking me. I felt absolutely worthy to succeed and that I am aligning  with Who I have become. My True 'Seyi.
Again, I cried. I acknowledged that the reason I had felt so envious of Gabrielle Bernstein was because she'd aligned with her True Self, and I had been resisting my own alignment, even though I knew that I wanted to run workshops, write my life story and give inspiring talks all over the world.
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=j_onGtsLPbE&feature=related
My True Self is a superstar spiritual coach, writer and speaker. During my time in my vortex, I understood that the discomfort I felt when I attended her workshop, and read Spirit Junkie was because my True Self recognized that Gabby is doing what my True Self is doing, and my physical self just hasn't caught up yet. I caught up last night.
In that moment of realisation I stepped into my True Seyi's fabulous shoes, and prepared to (my predictive text just put in run instead of walk) walk boldly where no one has gone before.
Because no one else has walked my journey. Only I can offer what I have to offer, and knowing that relieves any fear that I've left it too late, or that someone else can take my share of the "market."
This 30 day challenge is doing the final fine tuning required.
Here are some of the Abraham YouTubes that helped me today:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=grkdXKxbkNc&feature=related
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?feature=related&v=Mytu02XHBvQ
http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=hNzt6ur4iRY
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=clGB5vndmms&feature=relatedAbraham HicksAbraham Hicks

Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge: Day Eleven

Today has been the most evidence-filled day of this "challenge" so far. It has been truly awesome!
I finally got up at 5 am, after awaking at 3, feeling excited and in my vortex because the dream id just had, had been so great. So, I milked the in-the-vortexness feelings during the un-sleeping couple of hours (pre challenge id have spent those hours angry at God for not helping me get back to sleep).

Instead of being upset, I spent the time doing the Abe Alphabet Game, and pondering how great my life is, and what I would say in the interview I had that morning.

Once up, I began feeling slightly anxious about the day ahead, so I wrote a couple of notes about the amazing dream id awoken from. Slightly frustrated because I couldn't recall the message I had received in the dream, which was a sure-fire method of Allowing.

I did a round of inner child EFT, I had an interview for a job id like, and then scripted the day ahead. Which evolved from something else I was writing. It felt faboo to intend my day with no attachment to the outcome, I genuinely handed it over.

I continued with my regular morning processes:
Listened to Abe
15 mins meditation
Won't It Be Nice When....? (adapted Wouldn't It Be Nice If...? as per an Abraham session I listened to the other day)
Prosperity Game
Read some of Ask And It Is Given

I then did my half hour Just Dance session on the wii (my most favourite and fun daily practice at the moment). I felt great, and flowed into my day with joy in my heart, and the vortex on my mind.

Evidence
The interview was amazing, and I enlightened the panel of four interviewers about the Law of Attraction, and advised one who was particularly interested, to Google 'good ole' Abe. And when I entered the room I got de ja vu.

Since studying A Course In Miracles my guidance has been relatively clear, however, since starting this challenge it has become the clearest ever. I can feel it the moment even the slightest resistance begins. 

After the interview, I had a meeting up the road and was guided to walk there via a path beside the canal I've never been down. Just off the path, beside the canal, was a large boulder. Engraved in the bottom of the boulder was the word 'Remembered'. I took the fantabulous photo of it (see below). It felt like a gift, letting me know Im on the right path.

The evidence just kept flowing to me. And most important to note, is that the energy of the day was basically what I had intended in the scripting.

More evidence:
In Sainsburys car park, I was approached by a dude, who apprently knew me when I was living at my moms as a child, and told me I am very pretty, and my partner is a very lucky man. (Even though he's still in the vortex, I would agree).

Public transport flowed easily and came within minutes of me getting to every bus stop.

My debit card had a block on it (for unusual spending activity), so I couldn't use it to pay for lunch. And my friend had already decided to treat me, so I didn't need it.

Although it seemed inconvenient at the time, I chewed it over with my friend over lunch, and realised that it was actually exciting evidence of me being on the right track:
A: I have been doing the prosperity game, and that is vibrational "unusual spending"
B: there has been no "real" unusual spending
C: even though the bank teller said there was a block, when I called the central call centre to have it removed they said there was no block!

Im so on the right track with this.

Im buzzing just remembering to write about it.

After that I kept seeing things I like, or that I've bought in my prosperity game.

I ended my afternoon at my sisters house, having cuddles with my 4 month old nephew, and listening to the Getting Into The Vortex meditations she has on her iphone.

Id say that today has been a fantabulous day.

Thank you thank you thank you Abraham for setting me up on this challenge, and helping me focus on the positive aspects of a situation, even when it seems unfair or challenging.

Abraham vids that "did-it" for me today:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4Jp_2i_mtoQ
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ea1H2BKaW3M
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=rmOD_YNJDKg

What is the Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge?

You may have read a few of the blog posts, and be wondering what the fork this 30 day challenge is that I keep referring to. Or you may not, you may have guessed, but Im gunna tell you anyway.

It is an awesome and fun way to commit to rekindling your relationship with your True Self, God, your vortex, whatever you call the Source Energy that flows through everything and everyone.

I found this YouTube clip of the 30 day challenge on 4th January 2013, and instantly knew it was what I needed to do:
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=37LgfWscfXU

Basically, the idea is that you withdraw your attention from reality, and instead place your attention on your vortex. Or finding Better Feeling Thoughts that will move you in the direction of your vortex.

For 30 the only thing that is important is how you feel.

For 30 days:
You don't watch tv
You do whatever it takes to feel better.
You remove as much of your connection with "what is" and place your focus on What Is in your vortex.
You speak only of what's in your vortex.
You buy a notebook and call it your Book of Positive Aspects write in it as much as you can.
When someone does something that you get upset by, instead of blaming or attacking them, you turn your attention to the vortex version of them that you just made even better by the contrast you observed.
You get so in love with what's in your vortex that you don't wanna place your attention anywhere else.

You are tuning yourself to Who you truly are.

You immediately cancel all your appointments for the next 30 days.

And then.

Now that you've made space for You.

You wait and see what happens.

When you get guidance to take action, you take it, immediately if possible. Or write it down SW you can do something with it later.

When the manifestations start flowing, document them.

When you feel or observe evidence that things you've been wanting for a long time are on the way document it.

Look, avidly, for positive aspects of everything you experience. Even if it seems challenging. I promise you, you will find a blessing.

And what happens, is amazing!

Before I knew about this "challenge," I had already been getting guidance to cancel my plans, and not make anymore. Having done as guided, I was and still am, available for whatever my True Seyi wants me to do.

I don't have tv connection anyway, so the not watching tv was done already. I do however have a television set, that I watch DVDs and videos on, and Im still figuring out which films I can actually watch that don't lower my vibrations.

There's not many.

I already only watch 12A and below as it is. But I have found that a lot of animated films, which I love watching, are actually quite low vibration.

Im learning that I don't have to it perfectly, I just need to do my best.

Since I set up this blog ages ago, I have done nothing with it, I thought now would be the perfect time to do so.

This is the journey of realignment with my True Self, who I am now lovingly calling my True 'Seyi. (Seyi being my human name).

I am documenting as much of the manifestations and evidence I experience/observe during this 30 day "challenge." Manifestations include thoughts, changes of behaviours, physical manifestations, and most importantly consistent emotional  improvements.

ACIM says that God doesn't know the difference in size between what we would call small or big miracles. All of them are equally important. And in my experience, the tiniest shift in perception, has often brought me the greatest serenity, and the biggest transformation. I'll write more about miracles (which is just another name for manifestations) another time. 

So now you know what Im doing, maybe you want to do it too. I would highly recommend it.

Its not been easy. But then, Abraham wouldn't have called it a challenge if it was gunna be a walk in the park (Take lots of those during your 30 days, nature is a fabulous vortex inducer).

If you are ready to be fine tuned into Who you have become, then do this challenge.

My target by the end of the 30 days, is to be finely attuned to my True 'Seyi.

I am excited to share this journey with you. Its gunna be a great ride.