Abraham Hicks 30 Day Challenge Summary

just over a month ago, on January 4th, I listened to an Abraham Hicks video on YouTube, about how to really commit to being a deliberate manifestor by removing your attention from reality, and spending 30 days focusing into your vortex of creation.

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=37LgfWscfXU

Since I am an avid Abrahamster, I thought it sounded like a great idea, and would be an interesting experiment. I assumed I would completely transform my life during those 30 days.

Commencing on the 5th of January, I was guided to blog my progress.

It wasn't called a challenge for no reason, it was hard. I didn't think it would be quite so tough to be honest. When Abraham says that life shows you what you need to work on, they are not joking!

I have learnt so much about myself, my thought processes, and beliefs over the last 30 days, that I could spend the next 30 years working on them if I didn't know how easy it Is to move up the emotional scale just a little bit every day. That's one of the things I love about Abraham's teachings. It isn't possible to get from depressed to joy in one step, and they acknowledge that. What is important is to just find relief and not wallow in the low vibration emotions for too long. That is one of the many important messages that was missing from 'The Secret'. 
I followed the instructions on the video as best I could, but found it difficult to remove my attention from reality in an authentic way. I found that I was taking my attention off it, but unconsciously I was still worrying about things. or beating myself up.

Each week presented a fresh vibrational issue requiring immediate raising vibration attention. And each issue, I worked through successfully combining the tools and processes offered in the book Ask And It Is Given with EFT, and angels, and Louise Hay affirmations, and outreach calls. And lots of writing to get clear on what I was feeling and where I wanted to place my focus instead. 
During the challenge I used up  almost four notepads: 
° Writing Positive Aspects - mine, my son, my nephew, family of origin, my home etc
° Documenting the evidence of support from my angels of the Universe
° Manifestations
° Documenting evidence that what I have been wanting is on the way
° Finding Better Feeling Thoughts
° Writing about what I was experiencing

It has been a very intense and interesting experience.

Main things I learnt about myself:
°I beat myself up a lot -perfectionsm
°When I beat myself up my skin gets bad
°When Im nice to myself my skin glows
°When I treat myself like a precious object it makes me strong (paraphrased from Julia Cameron's Artists Way)
°I easily focus my body back into alignment with my natural state of Well-Being
°I have a better relationship with my vortex body than my vortex money
°My inner child is very afraid of me succeeding and attaining a level of financial security and freedom - uncomfortable because it is unknown
°I push and resist "what is" which creates resistance in my relationship with my vortex
°I still find it hard identifying what Im feeling and saying to myself unconsciously - especially when my inner child has been triggered

One of the several big things I learnt about myself is that I am amazing, that I am worthy and that I am a very powerful manifester. At one point I was literally manifesting things, into physical reality, within hours of thinking about them.

You can see my progress in previous posts.

I admit there was some disappointment today, (which is an up stream comment I know, but that's where I was at today). I had expected to come out the other end a multi millionaire, with the career of my dreams, and possibly a husband in tow. However, what I got was confirmation that although its all on the way. And Im SO on the right track. I have just a bit more vibrational clearing to do before Im aligned and ready to receive the things I've placed in my vortex over the duration of this, and many previous treasure hunts.
After listening to yet another brilliant Abraham session, I realised today that that's ok. There's no rush. My vortex ain't going anywhere. I can take my time, and be very loving and gentle with myself about this process of change. Because when I beat myself up, I move upstream. When I get into old behaviours and stories, I move upstream.

I finally understand how important it is to listen to my NGS is very important, and that there is truly NOTHING more important than that I actively seek ways to relieve the resistance Im feeling in each moment.

I now have a list of which tools  work for me, and Im gunna use them.

I also understand that I can never get it wrong. That no matter what state Im in, Im always in the right place. When Im noticing contrast, and really focusing on the reality of what I don't want, I am powerfully sending more pockets of what I do want into my vortex. And when I release the resistance, and start moving up the emotional scale towards my vortex, I am in a state of allowing what I want to manifest into my present reality. This Law of Attraction business is win win really when you think about it.

Now that I get the theory, which I really do. I am ready to be a physical example for those around me. Not to show them "oooh look at me, look at what I can do." But to show them the possibilities of allowing myself to be All that I have become in my vortex.

My True 'Seyi. The treasure I have been seeking all of my life. 

I am exactly where I am meant to be. And I am eager and excited for what is on the way.

The following are the processes I used during the 30 day challenge (the ones I have written with capital letters at the beginning of each word in the sentence are from Ask And It Is Given):
° Moving Up The Emotional Scale using writing - Finding A Better Feeling Thought 
° Forking
° Listening to Abraham Hicks on YouTube a LOT
° Creating beautiful art
° Sharing how I was feeling with friends
° Crying a LOT - there's massive relief in crying particularly from anger and frustration
° Dancing
° Singing
° Prosperity Game - brilliant at first until I ran out of things I wanted to buy (need to work on my mid range spending imagination - the extreme amounts are easy, but where Im at at the moment - £20,000's - are hard work cos I've bought most everything I want and need)
° Virtual Reality Game
° Scripting
° Laughing
° Napping
° EFT (emotional freedom technique)
°Meditation

I did my best to complete this challenge how Abraham laid it out in the audio, but the way I managed was right for me.

I was sent a curve ball somewhere in the middle of the challenge, which almost took me out of the game, but I pulled through, and have come out the other end vibrating at a higher rate than I have for a long time. Probably since I was a young girl.  I have been fine tuned to a closer vibrational frequency to my True 'Seyi.

WHAT'S NEXT? You might wonder. Well, Im going to continue practicing focusing on where Im heading, rather than on what is old news - current reality. And Im going to work, every day, on releasing resistance to my full alignment.

What I have been looking for all my life is True 'Seyi. I am the treasure, and the little pieces of me I gather along the hunt, are the prize.

I will be gentle and loving with myself, and really nurture Princess 'Seyi. Acknowledging all emotions, good and bad, so we can move up The Emotional Scale together.

To get current, I awoke this morning feeling anxious about money. And although id done my best to feel good before I went out to do the weekly food shop, I still felt full of anxiety. Before I left out I said a little prayer, and thanked my angels for going ahead of me and helping me.

On my walk up the road, I kept seeing a taxi drive past with 222 on. As you may know by now, my angels talk to me a lot through  numbers, and I use Doreen Virtue's Angel number directory on Spiritlibrary site to explain or confirm their meanings.

I got home from shopping feeling tense and agitated. I had a good cry and rant, working my way up the emotional scale by getting angry and blaming someone else for how bad I feel about money, and my financial situation.

Eventually I calmed down and checked out the Angel number meaning, and felt very reassured and encouraged. Everything is perfect as it is, and everything is unfolding in perfect timing. Not my timing, perfect timing. Which is perfect.

"222: Have faith. Everything’s going to be all right. Don’t worry about anything, as this situation is resolving itself beautifully for everyone involved."

I cant get this wrong, and I never get it done. So I might as well enjoy the treasure hunt.

Thanks Abraham.

Some videos that have helped today:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=VujIRyDdl10

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=r-xlakKvBrM

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zkbTp3-zBGg

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kmNqFeSjDAo&feature=relmfu

Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day Twenty Eight

With only 3 days of this challenge left, I am going to document my progress as fully as possible, And share it with you. I write how I think, and talk, so if my writing jumps to different places: welcome to my mind. 

If today were a chapter in my book, it would be entitled: LEARNING TO ACCEPT.

When I woke up on Tuesday morning, the first thought I had created massive resistance, which put my NGS into over drive. The thought was so unconscious, I still havent figured out what it was.

That's not entirely true. My friend sent me a link to the Archangel Nathaniel find your life purpose meditation, which I had listened to the night before. In the morning I think I got some guidance about the workshops Im developing that I didn't like, so I blocked it. And don't want to hear it or acknowledge it.

Ever since, I have been SO irritated with myself for not wanting to know the guidance I am (still) resisting, and the resistance has been SO persistent, that I have manifested a physical illness. I am now "out of whack," with a blocked, runny nose, and there are achey parts of my body.

According to Louise Hay, sinus issues indicate irritation with someone close. Accurate as always, as I have been very irritated with myself. Cant get much closer than that!

One positive outcome of this illness, is that I have become aware of how much I push against manifestations I dislike. Rather than authenticly accepting how Im feeling, I still have a codependent compulsion to deny what Im feeling and push it away. That is not how to work the Abraham way.
Abraham suggests we identify our emotions, accept them; and using the games and processes on offer, move up the emotional scale into alignment with our True Self.

For the 28 days of this challenge so far I have been learning how to accept my emotions, and to be easy with myself until I get the hang of it.  

For the last couple of days of this challenge I will be staying in my house, being still. I need to be still so I can easier connect with True 'Seyi, I hear my guidance better when Im still.

I realised yesterday that Im being fine tuned to my True 'Seyi. See my post on my NGS.

Today I thankfully realised that although I am physically ill, I can still get in my vortex and bask a little while. Until my self pity kicks in and gets me chucked out. 

It has been a much needed, gentle day today, after the baby-nephew-looking-after-sleep-deprivation-and-out-of-alignment-induced fainting episode I had the night before last. 

Today, rather than reading or trying to write my workshop material when its not time, I took it easy and covered the plain files I got from Homebargains with some pretty vintage floral paper. They are the basis for the new and improved filing system I am implementing for bank letters etc.

EVIDENCE
°Yesterday there was a quote on the Google site that said:
"Your idea might just change the world."
° I organically went into a Creative Workshop last night, and wrote about the beautiful workshops I am developing, and really felt the passion, and excitement I lost when I was trying to force them to happen before the right time. 
°Rebekah Shaman is holding a Cacao Ceremony on Feb 17th, which is about opening the Heart Chakra. When I received her email about it I thought id like to go and if I was meant to go id receive the money to pay for it soon. My mom came over today, and gave me the exact amount I need.
° My NGS is being fine tuned and I am becoming even closer aligned to my True 'Seyi because of this 30 day challenge. My True 'Seyi is kicking in on a very subtle level, the moment I become mis-aligned.
° I listened to a brilliant Abe session reminding me that I don't need to do the workshops to prove my self to anyone else. I am developing them because I want to help people. Not to say "oooh look at me. Look at how well Im doing. Validate me." which is something ego had kicked in with.

I will finish todays rather disjointed offering, with a quote from Marilyn Monroe, who I love. One of my sisters says that I remind her her. Obviously not looks-wise. We couldn't be much more different. She didn't explain why, she just said there was something about me that reminded her of Marilyn Monroe. I take it as a compliment.
Even though she was so devastatingly Codependent, which in the end is what took her life. Thinking about that reminds me of how blessed I was to find out about codependency and find ways to recover from it.

Marilyn was very self aware, and knew what she wanted. Her attraction was that she maintained her innocence. She was special, and she never knew just how much. That's what drew me to her, and probably what my sister means about me.

My journey of the last 4-5 years has been about finding out how special I am.

To me.

This quote I received as my daily message from Gabby Bernsteins Spirit Junkie group sums up the Abraham teachings I listened to today. It sums up my day. 

"Dreaming about being an actress, is more exciting then being one."
-Marilyn Monroe

Videos that resonanted today:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=--Y8zuu-V28&feature=related

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=ypCzn5Wjz_o

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwrel&v=QLZuYUDHy9M

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=VbRWWdLAFH0