Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day Twenty Six

Today has been super tough! When I woke up, the first thing I thought created a huge block of resistance which I have been unable release. I don't know what I thought about, but it must have been pretty important.

I always know when Im resisting my alignment with Source, because my right nostril gets blocked up. I periodically go through a fine tuning of this system, which is challenging in itself. After the fine tuning, I incrementally more sensitive to ever slighter variances in my relationship to my vortex.

I often find the blockage very annoying, and get extremely frustrated with it and myself when I cant understand what the resistance is about. Acceptance is something Im working on. In many areas.

Sometimes Im resisting guidance, sometimes the thoughts Im thinking are out of line with what  True 'Seyi would think about someone, something, or the situation at hand.

The blockage won't shift,It is frustrating the arse off me! I have wanted to scream, because I've been blocked up all day.

I have been confused about what Im meant to do, where Im meant to go.

I promised myself that during these 30 days I wouldn't do anything unless I clearly knew what I was being guided, but today, I thought several times I was being guided to do one thing, which changed, to the opposite. Which often happens, as other unseen components change.

But today. Boy oh boy. Its been tough. Its like I just cant hear/know what Im being asked to do, or what Im feeling about things.

Even though I was so blocked up, I was still able to recognise a few jewels (evidence that the Universe was on my side) today:

I found a fiver in my purse that id put aside for lunch today, and had forgotten about it. I hadn't needed it because I hadn't done what I thought I was going to do. I treated myself to some Delumptuous 'Bliss' incense sticks from my favourite shop, Love Light and Presence, and a Sunstone crystal. When I picked it up I knew the Sunstone felt right, but it wasn't until I read about its  properties that I understood why id been drawn to it. I should have know, considering one of my ascended masters this lunar cycle is Apollo. 

This awesome website gives  fantastic detail on the properties of the Sunstone:
http://www.crystalvaults.com/pages/crystal_encyclopedia/sunstone.php

When I was out and about I saw loads of little white feathers. I felt my angels going ahead of me. Helping me. Even though I was struggling to hear them guiding me. On the way to my sisters house, I looked up into a car window, and there was a beautiful air conditioning circle with a dove on it. And I saw some real doves hanging with the pigeons while I was out shopping.

In the ACIM the dove represents the Holy Spirit.

So, although its been a tough day, and I've been hard on myself. Beating myself up because I cant hear my guidance. Fretting because I may have missed an opportunity to network this morning.

I will start again tomorrow. I can commit to being loving and gentle with myself from this moment on. I can try again in each moment. In each moment I am born again.

Something strange happened at about half three in the morning. I hadn't managed to shift the resistance, which had become more intense the more frustrated with it I became.

Even though I was exhausted, I had offered to have my delicious pudding of a nephew for the night. My sister looked more exhausted than me, and the boon is I get to give him back...

He awoke at about half three, so i went to fetch him from the spare room. I was halfway to my bedroom door, and the next thing I was lying on the floor holding my head in agony. I had fainted. I never faint.

I believe that I was SO out of alignment that I fainted. It was nuts. I lay there for a while giving thanks that I hadn't been carrying my nephew at the time, and once id settled him back to sleep, I Googled "Releasing Blockage."

Best thing I could have done.

I had previously been told about the spiritual/psychological practice called Focusing, but hadn't looked into it very much. I think the first site I came across when I Googled "Releasing Blockage" was a site about focusing. I don't know much about it still, apart from it seems like a very effective way to connect with what's going on in your body, and identify the emotions that are being blocked. And by a method of internal investigation, accept and release the blocks.

You have to do it with a partner. It is something I am going to look into further. Link to the website I found is below. There are some free resources and Sessions recorded. One of which I did, and found it helped a bit. Maybe this will help you too.

http://www.focusingresources.com/articles/releaseblocks.html

Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day Twenty Five

The final week of this transformational 30 day challenge, and things are very interesting. Although, the frustration I feel when I cant hear my guidance easily is rising.

In an audio I recently listened to, Abraham reassured me that it is normal when doing this work for issues to come to the surface.  Since hearing that, I have been able to take it easy on myself, and not get so worried that Im sabotaging.

As much as I love the Abraham processes, I am still using other tools to help me process the emotions Im experiencing - something I find difficult to do, since I spent most of my life hiding from my feelings by numbing out with drink, drugs and other "fixes".

Combining ingredients really works for me. Writing lists of positive aspects, finding better feeling thoughts, and listening to the guided meditation Getting In The Vortex cd really help me when I know clearly what Im feeling.

In addition, I am hitting the EFT with Cathryn Taylor every day, and talking about what Im feeling with trusted friends.

Talking about stuff for a short period helps me:
A: chew over what's going on and get some perspective on it
B: ensure Im not isolating
C: process the emotional energy, which helps me connect with how Im really feeling about a situation

Today I am feeling good.

Everything just keeps working out for me.

The Universe is lining up some fabulous cooperative components.
I am recognising when a grid fills in, and celebrating, even when its not wanted. (or at least accepting if I cant celebrate).

I feel calmer about money. Whether its making decisions about spending, or when I get an unexpected bill letter (which I did today). I just know everything is fine.

I know that the Universe, my True 'Seyi and Source Energy has got my back, and all I have to do is find a way to feel a little bit better, and the good grids start filling in.

And I feel them.

I came here to expand, grow; to remember Who I really Am, and  allow that to be Who I show to the "peanut gallery".

Today has been a good day.

Thanks Abraham, God and all my goddesses and ascended masters for going ahead of me and perfecting every situation.

My visit to the dentist was easy, with no injections. My appt before that was quick and easy. I had more than enough money for what I wanted and needed. People smiled at me for no reason. I watched a small child laugh with his mom. I had a wonderful meeting of minds with a friend this evening, and we'll be going ice skating soon.

Its been a good day.

Life is good when I live it like this. Life is meant to flow, and be good every day, all day.

I love where I am. And I am eager for what is on the way.

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kPfE7zdLHkU&feature=related

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=3Yv6JeQKXCs&feature=related

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=dgfE-yz0OnI

Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day 22

I thought today was day 23, Im actually on day 22, and am in hardcore healing. Which, in reality, is realignment (rather than healing, because my True Self needs no healing) with my True 'Seyi, my natural state of Well-Being. 

Exhausted from having looked after my baby nephew since yesterday evening. My youngest sister is moving house this weekend, so I offered to take care of the little one last night. I love him so much. 

I have my Full Moonday tomorrow, so couldn't have him for the whole weekend, although i would have loved to. He is a truly delicious child, yet it is soooo nice to be able to give him back. Im not used to being continuously responsible for someone else anymore. Its tiring.

My children are 17 and almost 21 now. So I haven't had little ones in my care much for a long time. Apart from my six year old niece, whom I adore, but didn't take care of much when she was little.

Having to take care of siblings, and having too many none age appropriate responsibilities was a major contributer to my ensuing codependency. Thanks to the work I've done over the last 4 years, I releasing my desire to care-take and getting validation from being needed.

However, in putting my boundaries in place and not having baby Kiro for another night (even though I wasn't asked to) I felt guilty, as though I wasn't doing enough. I know this was just my codependency. And as my ex sponsor used to say:
I am one of many.

Tomorrow I shall focus especially on releasing the Codependent behaviour of putting others needs ahead of my own, and the dysfunctional belief that I won't be loved if I don't make myself unlimitedly available.

Because of this dysfunctional thinking adding to the exhaustion of looking after a 6 month old baba, today has been rather challenging. Added to which I have continued processing the childhood emotions that have been rearing up recently. 

That being said, Im glad to report that Im back on track with the 30 day challenge. Things got pretty hairy for a while. A few tough and emotional days made me consider jacking in the challenge. Im glad I am so persevering.

I've listened to plenty of Abe, done some powerful Cathryn Taylor EFT sessions on the grieving process: anxiety and despair; continued with the general processes of this 30 day challenge and I have come through the other side, even more committed than before.

And when I get in it, I have really been milking my vortex for all it's worth. 

After writing lots of lists of Positive Aspects, drinking Lot on water, and documenting the evidence of manifestations, I am feeling great. Excited about the transformation Im experiencing, and eager for the outcome at the end of the 30 days, whatever that may  be the outcome.

I mostly write this on my phone, as I don't have the internet at home. Suddenly. About an hour ago, the phone stopped letting me write.

I get REALLY angry when things don't work. Especially technology.

I had a good bash (thumping something helps me release anger, I usually hit my bed or some pillows) at my bed, and cried. Then left it, without throwing my phone across the room this time, and got on with a some homecare tasks I wanted to do before I chillax on Moonday tomorrow.

When I finished, I washed my face, and did the 3 minute mirror process. While loving myself in the mirror, I went into my vortex. And basked in it for ages. Im still on the periphery as I write this.

When I realise Im in my vortex, I get to work: focusing on all the faboo stuff in there. I really feel my wealth, my perfect body, my relationships, my husband, my family as they are in my vortex. I observe everything through my Pollyanna vortex glasses. Lush.

I love this 30 day challenge. The feeling of relief of getting into it, is SO worth the contrast of when Im not in the vortex.

Its like coming home after a long cold day. The heating is on, and the sun is shining through the window. Someone you love comes and gives you a hug and a hot drink, then space to relax.

I love my vortex.  

Moonday tomorrow. Sleep, meditation, letting go and fasting are the order of the day, maybe not in that order. And of course I shall update my lunar book, and read the new lunarscope from Rebekah Shaman.

Some videos I've enjoyed or that have helped:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xyD-KnlZPAk

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xyD-KnlZPAk#/watch?feature=related&v=SBOtj1RmaUE

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=P_6aq-bJT58&feature=relmfu

Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day Twenty

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back--Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth that ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”

My beautiful friend sent that quote to me, on a day when it couldn't be more apt or more challenging. It's one I have read somewhere before, although neither of us could recall who it's by.

I found the message challenging, because I have been in fear: self-sabotage mode for a few days. Thankfully, Im back on track after spending  Thursday (day 20) nurturing myself and being still.

I received some information on Tuesday which deeply triggered my inner child. However, because it often takes me a while to process information, and to connect with how I actually feel about things, I have been afraid that I had sabotaged the career grids I was building.

However, I listened to several Abraham sessions reminding me that I can never fork up so badly its irreparable. I simply focus on releasing resistance to connect with my True Self/my Higher Power/God.

I know all of my What Is Wanted grids can be easily reactivated. (The grids Im talking about are the ones activated by 17 seconds of thought, which activate the Law of Attraction). And am taking some time out to focus on other things until I re-sync with my workshop grids.

Im finishing off this post early in the morning of day twenty two, after having some seriously emotional revelations about what has been going on for me, and the vibrations needing to be healed in me.

One of my favourite ACIM lessons is that I am never upset for the reason I think. The past few days, mixed bag of experiences and emotions, all overshadowed by underlying anxiety, have shown me just how true a statement that is.

I've decided not to write about the specifics of the issue at this point. At first I thought I had made a mistake about how I was approaching the workshops. Or that I wasn't meant to do them. Or that I didn't want to do them.

Upon further investigation and a natural epiphany while playing, I realised that I have been given a MAJOR opportunity to heal some deep, lifelong wounds.

In an Abraham audio, they say that we don't need to delve into our past to heal old wounds. Life will offer situations giving us opportunities to work on raising the vibration of every, single, thing we've ever experienced. In doing so, in 30 days, our lives will be transformed.

It seems this is exactly what is happening since I committed to undertake this 30 day challenge.

All I can say is:
WOW

Some videos I found interesting/helpful:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kVCSfJZK4_I&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DkVCSfJZK4_I

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=v7VjggdFozs

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8812IbF8eyo&feature=relmfu

Abraham 30 day challenge: Tuesday was Day Eighteen

In You Can Heal Your Life, Louise L. Hay says that the probable cause for eczema is  "breathtaking antagonism or mental eruptions."

The accompanying affirmation, from her Hay House bestseller is, "Harmony and peace, love and joy surround me and indwell me. I am safe and secure."

For a few days I had been noticeing a blockage in my energy, but couldn't figure out what it was. I knew I had been being very perfectionistic and hard on myself ever since starting this 30 day challenge. But didn't connect the two.

"Suddenly" I got really bad skin. My face was practically a mask of eczema, and I was mortified! Knowing what I do about how my thoughts affect everything, I focused on being gentle and loving with myself.

I also started doing a daily mirror process, of sitting in front of my mirror for 3 minutes and smiling. In my head I repeat "'Seyi you are so beautiful, I love you." continuously for the three minutes. On the first evening, I cried while doing it.

This is one of the first processes I did when I began searching for my happiness. It really helped with my self image and healed the chronic BDD I had suffered from, as part of my codependency all my life. I cried every time I did it to begin with. After a few weeks, looking at myself grew easier, less unbearable with practice. Eventually I began to see my beauty.

I'll write more on that another time.

Tuesday (day eighteen) I was guided very clearly around my day.

I met with the guy from the agency Im offering codependency awareness workshops to in the morning, which went well but triggered even more perfectionsm. After another meeting at half one, I was guided to go to TKMaxx, which was not on my to-do list for the day. I had been up until 3 the night before writing ideas for the workshops. I just wanted to go to bed. 

But I went to TKMaxx, because I needed some face wash, even tho I haven't found any I like there recently. I listened, trusted and went. I love TKMaxx, they always have awesome organic natural toiletries.

After about 15 mins of searching through the toiletries I began feeling a disheartened, id found a nice set for my son, but not what I wanted. Just as I was about to get resentful toward my angels, I looked somewhere I hadn't before and found the most delicious olive oil L'Occitane face wash. Which is a very nice brand, one I've never seen in there before. I thanked my angels profusely and made my way to the till.

While waiting to pay, I saw a cute little bamboo face cloth. I love bamboo products, they are eco-friendly, and naturally anti- bacterial. I didn't think I had enough money for everything, but said a little prayer, and I had almost to the penny the amount I needed!

While I had been in TKMaxx, id been receiving guidance to go and see my sister. I was so tired, and all I wanted to do was go home and climb back into bed. But it was clear, and insistent, so I did as I was asked.

I left her house much later that day, eddified with cuddles and giggles with my nephew, and a huge tub of African Shea butter, that I promised to buy back, which will help my skin heal. This was even more evidence that the Universe was showing me where to go to get the help I had been asking for.

I have been using a constant mantra of reassurance that Im doing well, and everything is going to be ok, as well as slathering on the Shea butter at every opportunity. Today, just 2 days later, my skin is so much better. And more importantly, I am being much gentler on myself, and not pushing myself to achieve anything with regard to the workshops or this blog.

I felt that much of the love and validation I desired as a child was based on succeeding and achieving. That there was always an expectation that I should be able to do everything perfectly the first time I tried, and every time thereafter. This deep conditioning toward perfectionsm is something I am working on letting go of. It is soul destroying, and my inner child has gone into sabotage mode.

All I can do is soothe Princess 'Seyi, while I learn how to put less pressure on myself, and how to trust Im on the right track. Abraham really helps, as does the EFT I've been doing with Cathryn Taylor, and writing.

My happiness relies on combining the variety of ingredients I've collected, and picking out the right ones for each scenario that arises.

These Abraham videos helped me appreciate that I am actually  exactly where Im meant to be, and I am doing really well.

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=BPHdNU07hEo

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1LLexgn_s3g&feature=related

Inner child
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kVCSfJZK4_I&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DkVCSfJZK4_I

Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day Sixteen

Last night I had a dream, and 111 is the only thing I remembered from it when I awoke in the morning. I was somewhat confused because I had a feeling that the dream had been very important, and there was something in it that I needed to know.

Lying in bed, trying recall anything else, was a futile exercise. Eventually I got up, and got on with my morning Abraham processes. During which time I remembered about how powerful numbers have always been for me. And that jerry Hicks also loved seeing number sequences.

Doreen Virtue, one of the leading Angel "whisperers," has a brilliant section about the meaning of sequential numbers on the site below, 111 means:
"Monitor your thoughts carefully, and be sure to only think about what you want, not what you don't want. This sequence is a sign that there is a gate of opportunity opening up, and your thoughts are manifesting into form at record speeds. The 111 is like the bright light of a flash bulb. It means the universe has just taken a snapshot of your thoughts and is manifesting them into form. Are you pleased with what thoughts the universe has captured? If not, correct your thoughts (ask your angels to help you with this if you have difficulty controlling or monitoring your thoughts)."

When I read the description I cried. Im very emotional at the moment - which is more evidence of this process working.

http://spiritlibrary.com/doreen-virtue/number-sequences-from-the-angels

Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day Fourteen

The title of today is: Humility.

This morning I was the furthest away from my vortex that I've been for a long time. Although I had slept well, and had been in my vortex when I got out of bed, because I was getting aware that I was getting some guidance to not do something I wanted to do, I shut myself off. Which is very old, and now, very uncomfortable Codependent behaviour.

I willfully went to the library to internet, as planned. It was snowing heavily, and I wanted to get to the shops before they sent the staff home.

I enjoyed the ten minute uphill walk there, and was overly warm by the time I arrived. My feet lovely and warm and dry, thanks to the plastic bags I had put on between two layers of socks.

While engrossed in some research for the codependency workshop programme Im developing, 2 people entered the library. A man and woman. The woman was moaning about someone, calling them Rat-face. And storming around telling anyone who would engage with her about some hard times she was experiencing.

She stormed past me, and I felt her anger. I felt quite uncomfortable and was worried she might take out her anger on me. She clearly had "mental health" issues. I did my best not to judge, and when she came to tell me her woes, I attempted to be positive and kept the conversation to a minimum. She was actually quite friendly, and all of her frustration was directed to the man she was with, and the person who had upset her.

When I left the library, I didn't think anything more of her (if I had been in a more connected state I would have been sending her love the moment she came in the door).

All the way home I really wanted to make a Snow Angel. You know? When you lie on the ground, arms and legs akimbo, and you move them like you're doing star jumps.  My inner child was begging me to, but I wasn't there.

Finally, on the grass verge, now a snow verge, around the corner from my house, I submitted. Throwing my bags down, and myself beside them I made a fabulous snow angel. And it was so much fun that I wanted to make a row of them but I didn't. One was enough.

As I sat up, my back covered with snow, the woman from the library was walking past. I had never seen her near this part of where I live before, nevertheless, there she was, smiling up at me on the verge. Saying "yep, that's the best exercise in this weather. Are you doing your exercise? Thats the best way to do it in this weather."

I got up, smiled, and went home.

Part of my daily practice is doing the Extreme Sweat programme on the wii Just Dance game. And I love it. When I was in my active addiction, I was a clubber. At the height of my acting out, I would go out to a nightclub at least 3 nights a week every week.

The motivation was partly because I was desperate to get attention from men, and hopefully meet my husband. But a big part was because I LOVE dancing. My inner child still wants to be a dancer when she grows up. And one of the manifestations we've been playing with in the vortex is that being on one of those dancing shows on TV.

When I used to go out dancing, id feel so happy. In the middle of the dance floor, surrounded by people. Feeling the vibration of the music flowing through me.

I was home. I was so connected, I would have a spiritual experience every time I got on the dance floor. I thought the feeling was because of all the drugs and alcohol I had consumed.

I now know that the feeling of joy was my connection with God. I am a really good dancer. Because God dances through me, and with me. I have almost perfect rhythm without trying. I feel the music in my heart. When I dance I easily go in my vortex.

I recently realised that because of my perfectionsm, I have been being quite hard on myself when I don't get high scores on the game. So Im working on being gentle and loving with myself.

I feel the vortex throbbing in my heart for ages after I dance. It is my happy place. Its so much fun. When I dance, I feel whole.

What's yours?

Few Abe videos that I loved today:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=relmfu&v=hK4azzAvuAY

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tlNmsRt7tx4

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=GzF7C0ZDwM4

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=v4iUs0BzXYs

Abraham 30 Day Challenge: Day Thirteen

Yesterday was a challenging, interesting, growing, manifesting day.

This morning I felt frustrated with  the challenge. Tired of working so hard at feeling better. However, when I don't try to find better feeling thoughts, because over the last fourteen days I have been working so hard to fine tune my awareness of where I am in relation to my vortex, the discomfort feels worse now than before. It feels like my resistance is ramping up. 

I have been beating myself up about this. Beating myself up because Im not doing it perfectly, because Im not in my vortex as much as id like, and because I keep wallowing and worrying.

I listened to this brilliant Abraham audio, which really helped:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=9HeALXyI44A

Yesterday was interesting and manifesting, because the night before I had affirmed that I am ready to step into the shoes of my True Self (True Seyi). I felt it. I had connected with Who I have become. Who I have expanded into Being. I connected, without prejudice or resistance, to my vortex.

Completely ready to take regular steps in the direction of my True Seyi. Yesterday I took some leaps. And do you know what? It was easy. And do you know what else? I was ready.

I feel excited, and I know that the workshops Im developing are going to help people. I received clear guidance that I have to offer them to women's correction facilities, amongst other places.

In the Abraham audio explaining this 30 day challenge, Abraham says that after a few days you'll begin to receive guidance on new ways to behave, and that it will be like the Universe is saying, "you've been thinking about doing this for a long time, let me show you where it is." and "you've been thinkin about this for a long time,let me show you where that is." This is exactly how it feels.

I have been wanting to do workshops about codependency and the processes I've used to change my life. Codependency is one of the worlds biggest, and most damaging, yet best kept secrets. 

I am eager to move forward with the commitments to my life I've made.

There is some debate about who first wrote this quote, but it sums up my new life intention:
“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a Ride!”

I love it.

Finally, yesterday was challenging because of my codependency. Wanting to control and have everything my way. Judging and projecting how terrible something will be. Negative fantasies about a situation that turned out to be a blessing.

This Abraham audio helped me recognise that I didn't attract the negative situation, I was facilitating the solution for the parties involved:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mo3HAxrgOGw

No matter what issue I encounter during this challenge, I come across a YouTube clip of Abraham that helps me feel at least a little bit better, and release a little bit of resistance.

Thanks Abe xxx 

Other clips that really helped me today:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=relmfu&v=hK4azzAvuAY

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tlNmsRt7tx4

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=v4iUs0BzXYs

Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge: Day Twelve

Day twelve, and all is well on the Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge. In fact, all is better than well, all is AWESOME! (the word "awesome" said like a surfer dude).
Each day offers numerous opportunities to grow closer to God, my True Self. Miracles abound, and the evidence that I am "tuned in, turned on, and tapped in," most of the time, is abundant.
Rather than the metaphorical evidence I experienced yesterday when my debit card was blocked for "unusual spending activities," today the manifestation became physical.
One of the daily processes I do in the morning, is the Prosperity Game from Ask And It Is Given by Abraham, via Esther and jerry Hicks. I explained fully how to play it in a previous post. Basically, the purpose of the Game is to improve your feeling about spending money, and remove the tension many people experience when making financial decisions, which creates resistance, and therefore blocks the money in your vortex from coming to you.
Since playing the game regularly, I feel like I don't need money any more, and I don't worry about it running out. I know that I'll always get some more. Its been fun just spending whatever I want, and not thinking about how I'll pay the bills if I buy that holiday, or 20 expensive bras.
And because I use exactly the same accounting method I for my "real" finances, it feels really real.
I received £10,000 today, and bought something for someone that would change their life. It filled me with joy doing it for them. That purchase took all the money I had received that day, however, I had a bit left from the previous day (you're meant to try and spend all the money you receive on the same day, but you can save a bit if you like. Well. You can do what you want, its your game) that id carried forward, so purchased a few bits and bobs for myself. I totalled it up, then became aware I was resisting some guidance. But I ignored it, put the pad away and moved on to writing up some Positive Aspects. Fortunately the guidance persisted, so I breathed and listened, and remembered that I had decided to purchase a copy of the Getting Into The Vortex book/cd that day.
I checked how much was left in my Game account, and I had just over £30. I bought 3 copies, one each for me and my 2 children. Closed the book and thought nothing of how insistent my guidance had been about it.
After breakfast, I was getting ready to go to my first appointment of the day when the post came, and it sounded quite heavy, so I thought:
"hmmm, sounds like that big cheque I've been waiting for!" excited, I went to fetch the cheque, but it was something quite different.
An Amazon book box.
You guessed right, one of my fabulous Appreciation Game friends had ordered me a copy of the Getting Into The Vortex book/cd. And it came ON THE DAY I ordered it from the Universe!
THAT IS AMAZING!
I cried with happiness and appreciation. I don't need any more evidence of the Law of Attraction in action after that.
Couple of powerful pieces of evidence came later in the day:
All afternoon, and for much of the early evening I was stuck in fear/catastrophe thinking that I couldn't shift. I did the necessary writing in an attempt to raise my vibration. Eventually, as soon as I was able to focus more attention on the outcome I desired rather than the problem as I was projecting it, the issue literally dissolved and became irrelevant. I checked my twitter account just after I got the call confirming the issue had dissolved, the first one my eyes laid upon was:
ACIM Quotes (@ACIMquotes) tweeted at 3:57 PM on Wed, Jan 16, 2013:
"There is no home can shelter love and fear. They cannot coexist."
#ACIM #quotes (https://twitter.com/ACIMquotes/status/291574843659386882)
Later on in the evening, while in the bath, I connected easily with my Vortex. For the first time I felt ready to move forward, and step into where Life is taking me. I felt absolutely worthy to succeed and that I am aligning  with Who I have become. My True 'Seyi.
Again, I cried. I acknowledged that the reason I had felt so envious of Gabrielle Bernstein was because she'd aligned with her True Self, and I had been resisting my own alignment, even though I knew that I wanted to run workshops, write my life story and give inspiring talks all over the world.
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=j_onGtsLPbE&feature=related
My True Self is a superstar spiritual coach, writer and speaker. During my time in my vortex, I understood that the discomfort I felt when I attended her workshop, and read Spirit Junkie was because my True Self recognized that Gabby is doing what my True Self is doing, and my physical self just hasn't caught up yet. I caught up last night.
In that moment of realisation I stepped into my True Seyi's fabulous shoes, and prepared to (my predictive text just put in run instead of walk) walk boldly where no one has gone before.
Because no one else has walked my journey. Only I can offer what I have to offer, and knowing that relieves any fear that I've left it too late, or that someone else can take my share of the "market."
This 30 day challenge is doing the final fine tuning required.
Here are some of the Abraham YouTubes that helped me today:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=grkdXKxbkNc&feature=related
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?feature=related&v=Mytu02XHBvQ
http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=hNzt6ur4iRY
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Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge: Day Eleven

Today has been the most evidence-filled day of this "challenge" so far. It has been truly awesome!
I finally got up at 5 am, after awaking at 3, feeling excited and in my vortex because the dream id just had, had been so great. So, I milked the in-the-vortexness feelings during the un-sleeping couple of hours (pre challenge id have spent those hours angry at God for not helping me get back to sleep).

Instead of being upset, I spent the time doing the Abe Alphabet Game, and pondering how great my life is, and what I would say in the interview I had that morning.

Once up, I began feeling slightly anxious about the day ahead, so I wrote a couple of notes about the amazing dream id awoken from. Slightly frustrated because I couldn't recall the message I had received in the dream, which was a sure-fire method of Allowing.

I did a round of inner child EFT, I had an interview for a job id like, and then scripted the day ahead. Which evolved from something else I was writing. It felt faboo to intend my day with no attachment to the outcome, I genuinely handed it over.

I continued with my regular morning processes:
Listened to Abe
15 mins meditation
Won't It Be Nice When....? (adapted Wouldn't It Be Nice If...? as per an Abraham session I listened to the other day)
Prosperity Game
Read some of Ask And It Is Given

I then did my half hour Just Dance session on the wii (my most favourite and fun daily practice at the moment). I felt great, and flowed into my day with joy in my heart, and the vortex on my mind.

Evidence
The interview was amazing, and I enlightened the panel of four interviewers about the Law of Attraction, and advised one who was particularly interested, to Google 'good ole' Abe. And when I entered the room I got de ja vu.

Since studying A Course In Miracles my guidance has been relatively clear, however, since starting this challenge it has become the clearest ever. I can feel it the moment even the slightest resistance begins. 

After the interview, I had a meeting up the road and was guided to walk there via a path beside the canal I've never been down. Just off the path, beside the canal, was a large boulder. Engraved in the bottom of the boulder was the word 'Remembered'. I took the fantabulous photo of it (see below). It felt like a gift, letting me know Im on the right path.

The evidence just kept flowing to me. And most important to note, is that the energy of the day was basically what I had intended in the scripting.

More evidence:
In Sainsburys car park, I was approached by a dude, who apprently knew me when I was living at my moms as a child, and told me I am very pretty, and my partner is a very lucky man. (Even though he's still in the vortex, I would agree).

Public transport flowed easily and came within minutes of me getting to every bus stop.

My debit card had a block on it (for unusual spending activity), so I couldn't use it to pay for lunch. And my friend had already decided to treat me, so I didn't need it.

Although it seemed inconvenient at the time, I chewed it over with my friend over lunch, and realised that it was actually exciting evidence of me being on the right track:
A: I have been doing the prosperity game, and that is vibrational "unusual spending"
B: there has been no "real" unusual spending
C: even though the bank teller said there was a block, when I called the central call centre to have it removed they said there was no block!

Im so on the right track with this.

Im buzzing just remembering to write about it.

After that I kept seeing things I like, or that I've bought in my prosperity game.

I ended my afternoon at my sisters house, having cuddles with my 4 month old nephew, and listening to the Getting Into The Vortex meditations she has on her iphone.

Id say that today has been a fantabulous day.

Thank you thank you thank you Abraham for setting me up on this challenge, and helping me focus on the positive aspects of a situation, even when it seems unfair or challenging.

Abraham vids that "did-it" for me today:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4Jp_2i_mtoQ
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ea1H2BKaW3M
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=rmOD_YNJDKg

What is the Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge?

You may have read a few of the blog posts, and be wondering what the fork this 30 day challenge is that I keep referring to. Or you may not, you may have guessed, but Im gunna tell you anyway.

It is an awesome and fun way to commit to rekindling your relationship with your True Self, God, your vortex, whatever you call the Source Energy that flows through everything and everyone.

I found this YouTube clip of the 30 day challenge on 4th January 2013, and instantly knew it was what I needed to do:
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=37LgfWscfXU

Basically, the idea is that you withdraw your attention from reality, and instead place your attention on your vortex. Or finding Better Feeling Thoughts that will move you in the direction of your vortex.

For 30 the only thing that is important is how you feel.

For 30 days:
You don't watch tv
You do whatever it takes to feel better.
You remove as much of your connection with "what is" and place your focus on What Is in your vortex.
You speak only of what's in your vortex.
You buy a notebook and call it your Book of Positive Aspects write in it as much as you can.
When someone does something that you get upset by, instead of blaming or attacking them, you turn your attention to the vortex version of them that you just made even better by the contrast you observed.
You get so in love with what's in your vortex that you don't wanna place your attention anywhere else.

You are tuning yourself to Who you truly are.

You immediately cancel all your appointments for the next 30 days.

And then.

Now that you've made space for You.

You wait and see what happens.

When you get guidance to take action, you take it, immediately if possible. Or write it down SW you can do something with it later.

When the manifestations start flowing, document them.

When you feel or observe evidence that things you've been wanting for a long time are on the way document it.

Look, avidly, for positive aspects of everything you experience. Even if it seems challenging. I promise you, you will find a blessing.

And what happens, is amazing!

Before I knew about this "challenge," I had already been getting guidance to cancel my plans, and not make anymore. Having done as guided, I was and still am, available for whatever my True Seyi wants me to do.

I don't have tv connection anyway, so the not watching tv was done already. I do however have a television set, that I watch DVDs and videos on, and Im still figuring out which films I can actually watch that don't lower my vibrations.

There's not many.

I already only watch 12A and below as it is. But I have found that a lot of animated films, which I love watching, are actually quite low vibration.

Im learning that I don't have to it perfectly, I just need to do my best.

Since I set up this blog ages ago, I have done nothing with it, I thought now would be the perfect time to do so.

This is the journey of realignment with my True Self, who I am now lovingly calling my True 'Seyi. (Seyi being my human name).

I am documenting as much of the manifestations and evidence I experience/observe during this 30 day "challenge." Manifestations include thoughts, changes of behaviours, physical manifestations, and most importantly consistent emotional  improvements.

ACIM says that God doesn't know the difference in size between what we would call small or big miracles. All of them are equally important. And in my experience, the tiniest shift in perception, has often brought me the greatest serenity, and the biggest transformation. I'll write more about miracles (which is just another name for manifestations) another time. 

So now you know what Im doing, maybe you want to do it too. I would highly recommend it.

Its not been easy. But then, Abraham wouldn't have called it a challenge if it was gunna be a walk in the park (Take lots of those during your 30 days, nature is a fabulous vortex inducer).

If you are ready to be fine tuned into Who you have become, then do this challenge.

My target by the end of the 30 days, is to be finely attuned to my True 'Seyi.

I am excited to share this journey with you. Its gunna be a great ride.

Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge: Day Ten

I woke up this morning and immediately went into judgement about the noise my son makes moving around the house, which seems amplified early in the morning, and late at night.
I recalled a brilliant session I listened to yesterday:
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=rmOD_YNJDKg

Inner child fear of money and the Abraham Prosperity Game

I have been playing the Abraham Hicks Prosperity Game for a while. Starting small, so my mind would find it believeable, I happily enjoyed imagining the big-spending.

The Prosperity Game, from Ask And It Is Given, is a game to enhance ones imagination. Each day you imagine you've received £1000 more than the previous (I worked up in £100s until I hit £1000), and you spend all of it each day. Recording it in an accounting method that feels realistic to you.

I record my purchases, in detail, in a small notepad. Exactly the same as the one I use for my personal daily expenditure records.

So, you get and spend £1000 on the first day, £2000 on the second, £3000 on the third, and on you go until you've been doing it as long as want. Therefore, when you're on day 365 you get £365,000 to spend. By which time you'll have spent about 61 million in total.

I was having great fun playing with increasingly large sums. It helped me develop a sense of ease when spending my real money. I don't know how, but it works.

On Saturday (my Moonday), I was up to £6000, and had decided to buy myself, and 3 people in my life a suite on the Abraham Hicks Mediterranean cruise taking place in September this year. I would really love to go on the cruise, and thought it would be fun to buy tickets for others who are also enjoying Abraham's teachings.
The moment I "paid" for the cruise I felt discomfort, rather than the excitement id expected. I couldn't understand.

During my meditation I connected to my precious inner child. The discomfort I was experiencing was her fear, terrified of spending and having access to that kind of money.

It was an interesting awareness, I reassured her all was well, but she would not be soothed. So I turned to my failsafe inner child comfort blanket:
Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT).

Cathryn Taylor is an amazing EFT practitioner, who specializes in inner child work, with focus on addiction and codependency. Her EFT sessions always relieve me when Im feeling triggered.

When my attempts at writing and connecting to better feeling thoughts proved ineffective, I found and did the session on the YouTube clip below, and then again on Sunday evening. 

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FW2zkBlG5qc

After I had done the EFT session with Princess 'Seyi I felt instant relief. My alignment had been restored. In this gentler state of vibration, I was reminded of that Abraham said that the Universe will supply us with the things in our vortex incrementally.

If I (and my inner child) allow it to, the millions that I've put in my vibrational bank account - simply by observing the contrast of not having - will flow in a way I will be able to cope with. Therefore, I don't need to feel overwhelmed or afraid.

This was a very powerful clearing opportunity for me, as money is one of my core triggers. It has highlighted again how important my inner child is, and that I sometimes feel as afraid of success as of failing. 

Abundance allowing is a subject I will be focusing on as part of my Abraham 30 day challenge. It will be exciting to observe the evidence of what happens as my vibration clears.

If you don't know about EFT, Cathryn Taylor suggests a couple of websites to go to to learn the basics before jumping straight in. I've put a link to her website in my Luscious Links list. 

Inner child work is a very powerful way of connecting to the blocked emotions stored within our bodies from the past. When I experience an excessive reaction to a relatively minor occurrence, I know my inner child has been triggered. I pounce on the opportunity to do some work on clearing the emotional issues that have come up, using whatever method works. As with what happened on Saturday, I often need to try several things to soothe Princess 'Seyi. 

EFT has been a vital component in connecting to, and processing my old, suppressed emotional memories. However, be aware that it can bring up some painful memories. I will discuss this important topic a lot.

On Saturday I didn't sleep until 430 in the morning. I basked in my vortex all night. My relaxed state easily kept me there, downloading ideas and information. At one point I was so connected with natural Well-Being and abundance, I felt like I didn't need any money or anything anymore. It was a wonderful sensation of peace and flowing, such as I've never experienced. I am eager to have more experiences like that, sharing my progress with you, as I do this work.

I will end with a quote from the delicious Dorothy Parker:
"I don't know much about being a millionaire, but I bet id be a darling at it!"

My Year Book

New year intentions
Dreams
New and full Moonday writing
Lunch cycle summary

My sister, who is currently living the dream travelling round the world, sent me this beautiful book from India. Think its a recycled sari.

I love it. Recycled paper. Exactly the new Year Book I was hoping for. Thanks sis.

Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge: Day Eight

What a marvellous journey this 30 day challenge is turning out to be! Especially considering I have barely left my house.

Today, I have been basking in my beautiful home. Lounging and pampering myself on my bi-monthly Moonday.

Honouring the natural part of myself affected by the lunar cycles, I take a day of rest on or as close to each new and full moon as possible. I call it my Moonday.

My son goes to stay at his dads, so I have a full 24 hours to myself. This is very important, as I need peace and space to do what I want, when I want.

I love Rebekah Shaman's lunar scope, that is delivered to my inbox a few days prior to each lunar phase. Her interpretation of the energy accompanying the cycle is always interesting and on-point. Check it out: http://us4.campaign-archive2.com/?u=bf3182281c10722c7eea99902&id=2d7283547d&e=66cd9efebd

So, today, I have done my Abraham processes of finding better feeling thoughts, looking for positive aspects, and of course rampaging in appreciation of things. On top of those regular processes I have certain new moon processes I do. Yesterday it was the Capricorn new moon. These include:

1. Reading Rebekah Shaman's lunar scope and making notes in my Year Book of things that resonante with me, or that I want to be mindful of. 

2. Affirming the goals and projects I will prioritize during the coming cycle - until the next new moon (it would make my life so much simpler if the calendar were lunar!)

3. Self care is the key concept of the moon day: resting, lying in bed just being still, meditating, reading nice gentle books, steaming my face, a big hot bath with lush body lotion afterwards, a face mask - today is honey, bicarbonate of soda mixed with a teaspoon of semolina gently rubbed onto face after steaming it with lavender infused water  (you get the idea).

4. Documenting any Inspiration I receive. Taking small actions if guided to do so. 

5. Personal oracle card reading from one or a selection of my decks. Today was from my ascended masters, as usual it was faboo.

6. Watching nice gentle films. A comedy or animated film.

7. Sleeping for at least a couple of hours in the afternoon.

8. Fasting until 6pm. I drink plenty of water and sometimes eat red grapes or sugar snap peas during the day if I feel like it. Today I had a banana at half 2.

Now, with all those processes and self caring tasks to get through, it may not sound like a most relaxing day. But I can assure you, it boosts me for the cycle ahead. I know how blessed I am that my life supports and enables me to have this time to myself.

When I first started on my journey, I found it almost impossible to relax, to be still. Giving myself just 2 days of resting and pursuing things I enjoy, is a massive achievement for me.

P.S. No work or homecare tasks allowed. The washing up will still be there tomorrow.

If I ruled the world Moonday's would be mandatory. Some kind of system could be devised.

Back to the challenge - evidence of my alignment to my vortex:

Yesterday I realised that I was being very heavy handed with myself, because my skin has been less than perfect. Last night while washing my face and body I promised myself that I wouldn't scrub at it, but instead id touch it with love and gentleness. I did that last night, and focused on how well the nose strip I had used had worked - my nose was particularly smooth and pleasing to touch - this morning the rashiness and blemishes had considerably diminished. It was awesome.

In a couple of weeks my sister will be moving into her new house which is practically around the corner from me.

One of my ascended masters for this month is Aengus, who helps us meet our twin flame. Exciting. I feel I still have some work to do on my vibration around romantic relationships, as this is the core of my codependency. I've a whole month to do it, which by using the Abraham teachings will be easy.

Happy happy happy days.

Abraham videos I have loved today:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Am9E7QjcjTU

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=-pjbPkLQZq4

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=plpp&v=NA4v8lxdiKY

http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=gz6wvKXm3Gc

Enjoy. Light and love from the vortex xxx

Magical Creation Box

The label I made for my Magical Creation Box.

Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge: Day Six

So today has been a very different manifestation day. And that's ok. It has been exactly the day I needed.
I was still feeling some tension about my son when I woke up this morning, and started projecting about him not doing his chores etc. I did a wonderful bit of Finding A Better Feeling Thought writing, and really connected to what my True Self would do, and how my True Self sees him, and whatever has been going on for him the last few days. I really asked the vortex version of myself, my True Self, what to do and that shifted my energy a lot.
As soon as id finished doing this writing I heard the little birds outside my window. Loads of them in the trees.
When he came home from college he was very upset about an experience of racism that he'd had on the way home in a chip shop, from the server. He told me about it, and then shared about a very scary racist attack he'd witnessed, against his friends dad, while at his friends house on Sunday, again involving a group of men of the same ethnic background as the man in the chip shop. He was so upset about how he had been treated by the man in the chip shop, I felt the experience must have triggered memories about when he and his friends were attacked by a group of boys a few years ago - also the same ethnic background as the person in the chip shop. I felt the alignement here was that I was able to offer him emotional support, advise him to do Abraham writing processes to focus on evidence against racism that he has experienced from people of this ethnic origin. This will raise his vibration about the horrible attack he experienced, which will be healing for him. I also felt blessed to own when I was unwilling to discuss it further, so my vibration wouldn't be affected too much. That was part of practicing my boundaries and letting go of Codependent behaviour of people pleasing. We had a good hug, and are back on track, if not closer.
I have been doing the prosperity game from Ask and It Is Given, and one thing I will purchase when i get to that amount is a range rover, in the first Abe video i listened to this morning they were talkin about a range rover.
This next one blew me away! Yesterday I was talking to my sister about doing this 30 day challenge and I told her she needs to get on this Abraham stuff. So she bought the new vortex app, and did the meditation last night. After my afternoon meditation I asked for guidance on what to do next, and was told to do a Rampage of Appreciation for my home, that I love. My phone was still on silent. I was guided to look at it, and my sister had called, when I rang her back she said she'd just called about a house she loved, and had organised a viewing for Saturday! That was amazing, because she wasn't sure if she would get the house, but it all worked out fine.
And while on the phone to her, I had a call come through about a second job interview about a job I want. I've been waiting to hear about it since before Christmas.
Today has been a powerful manifestation day.
I just listened to this Abraham video on unconditional love and it made me cry, I share it with you
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=iB7DBa_Mb2Q&feature=relmfu
There is great love in the vortex for you xx

Abraham Hicks 30 day challenge: Day Five

Evidence of being in my vortex:

Getting into my vortex while meditating and really milking it.

Sending out unconditional love filled texts to my besties, and loving it even more.  

Basking in the deliciousness of my cereal and being in ecstasy over the favours i experienced.

A little blue tit flitting around in front of my window while finishing my breakfast, basking in the deliciousness of my cereal.

Stepping in dog doo on my way to the grotto in my park.

Seeing beautiful red miniature rose blooms.

Led to the grotto to see the first spring snowdrops, so sweet with their heads bowed down in prayer.
A smiley woman greeting me after watching me in raptures over the pretty pink blossoms on the bush.

The gentle light, and warm breeze cutting through the brisk air.

Gettin 5 stars on a Just Dance dance on the wii for the first time.

Picking up my phone to call my son, to ask him to fetch me some butter, and finding a just received text from him asking if i need him to get anything on the way home.

My son coming home from college in a good mood.

Id been reaching for a feeling of frustration as a better feeling about something that happened, today my son facilitated that to manifest. Loving this stuff.

Abraham says that the most delicious part of the vortex is gettin in it. I say it is basking in it. Especially when I've been out more than in recently. 

Thanks Abraham.

Lush

Today has been a successful vortex day.